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Monday, May 28, 2012

Just Another Head On Your Pillow...Sex As Counterfeit Intimacy. #eroticromance #erotic

Darlin' I know
I'm just another head on your pillow
If only just tonight, girl
let me hear you lie just a little…

Love hurts. We’ve all experienced it and yet as humans we crave love and contact with others. We desire to have a lover who shares our most intimate selves and deepest secrets. Yet there are some people who have been hurt and disappointed so badly in their formative years that they fear emotional closeness as much as they crave it. How can they get the touch and attention they hunger for without risking hurt? Some people choose to use sex as a way to gain a kind of counterfeit intimacy.

But what happens when two such people fall in love with each other and they want to merge? Surely they can’t simply drop their dysfunctional patterns of behavior and open themselves to love without experiencing growing pains. What does it mean to want to love another person but to have no clue as to how to truly reveal one’s self and be vulnerable? Is it possible for such person to want to open but find himself or herself literally unable to change? When something like this happens, a person is faced with a formidable inner battle.

My Carte Blanche Series explores these kinds of relationships through the stories of wealthy, powerful men and the women they want to take as mistresses. I chose to set the stories against the backdrop of the Federalist and Jeffersonian periods in America because that is a fascinating time period to me. I also think it is a time when America as a nation was unsure, self protective and putting up a façade of being in control yet boiling with growing pains under the surface.

Grey’s Lady and its sequel, White Lace & Promises, are two very different stories. They occur at two very different places in the development of a relationship.

Grey’s Lady is a story of falling in love. Beth and Grey are two emotionally injured and self-protective people meeting and experiencing a very strong sexual attraction and an unnerving emotional pull towards each other. This attraction and pull is so overwhelming that what happens quickly evolves into a fiery point of ultimatum.


These are two people who are used to protecting themselves against the world with masks. Despite their differences, Beth and Grey have many common traits. They both fear deep inside that they will fail at what they most want to achieve in life.

They are accustomed to using sex as a way to get contact from others without revealing or giving much of themselves. Grey dominated women through his wealth and sensual skill. Beth dominated men through her beauty and sexual allure.

Now, in spite of all their determination to avoid emotional entanglements with their lovers, they have fallen in love. They find it hard to stay away from the other. There’s no choice but to enter into a committed relationship and they know they must each change in someway to accommodate the other. For such people, it is not easy to surrender.

White Lace and Promises is not the story of two people falling in love. It is the story of how does one move from being in love to actually opening up and giving the kind of love the other person needs. Beth and Grey have moved beyond the point of reacting from their surface personas with each other. They want to come to compromise with each other. They want to love and cherish the other. Yet old conditioned beliefs and patterns of behavior are too deeply ingrained. They do communicate their needs and their desires to each other. They do listen to each other. But it doesn’t help. They can’t change easily. They don’t know how to love because in their childhoods they were never shown the way to properly love.

White Lace and Promises is a story that explores the pain and angst of emotional growth in two flawed but well-intentioned people. How do people grow and come to terms with their own demons in order to make a marriage work? In order to make real love work?

Both Beth and Grey have been living their life with their personality split into compartments. Before they can have true intimacy with the other they must bring all the sides of themselves together and show all of themselves to another person at once. They must strip off their protective masks and reveal themselves fully. It is painful for them to do this. And there is great risk at stake.

Between two willful people, one person must remove their mask first and jeopardize everything for the love of the other. That person is Beth. The way I saw it is, she shows her strength by showing her weakness. She must suddenly face all her inner insecurity that she had hidden even from herself through her focus on sexual conquest. This fills her with an agonizing vulnerability.

Grey’s Lady is a story of moving from lust to being in love. White Lace and Promises is a story about moving from being in love to truly giving love to a lover. The latter is a far more emotional journey than the former and those emotions are not always pretty or pleasant. But then again, how often does real life romance move smoothly? Loving someone means accepting the hurt that comes with love. We accept that our loved one will definitely hurt or disappoint us at some point. That’s just part of being human. Humans are flawed and can only give flawed love. Sometimes the hurt we’ve been through, the hurt we’ve shared with this lover forms a stronger bond and makes our joys all the more ardent.

When you say comfort me
to anyone who approaches
Chalkin' up the hurt
we live and we learn
Well we've both lived
long enough to know
That we'd trade it all right now
for just one minute of real love, darlin'…

Lyrics the song “Real Love” as sung by the Dobbie Brothers on their album “One Step Closer”

Quotation here is for entertainment only and not meant to imply endorsement.

Book two in the Carte Blanche Series

Beth and Grey’s passionate battle of wills continues...

New York Merchant Prince Grey Sexton loves the audacious, spirited young temptress who seduced him in a Philadelphia bookseller’s and made passionate love to him in his carriage. Her fiery nature broke through his cold self-protection. But in a time of war and trade disruption, he cannot allow himself to be distracted. He vows to put business above all else in his life, including his bride.

Shocked and hurt by Grey's distance, Beth wonders whether he truly returns the burning love she feels for him. Beth demands that Grey prove he can truly change once and for all or else she will not start a family with him. But will the dark, sensual secrets she yet keeps repel this arrogant, self-controlled gentleman she has married?

What People Are Saying About White Lace And Promises:

Night Owl Romance:

"While they succeed in marrying it’s not the end of the story; quite the opposite. This is no quick read, but rather a dissection of a relationship as it flounders and flourishes...A good ending to the story that started in “Grey’s Lady.” ~ Chris

Sugarbeat’s Books

"Ms. Blackthorne certainly has the ability to create a story so hot it steams up the glasses! At the same time, the character development is great. Even when I didn’t agree with what the characters were doing, they were consistent. Behavior that made sense in the end proved the consistency of the character development. Even the nasty characters were a delight to read because they were so real!" ~ Sugarbeat

Please share your thoughts if you feel moved to do so.


  1. I loved Grey and Beth in Grey's Lady, and am anxious to read White Lace and Promises.
    Because, for one, couples from these contrasting backgrounds---yet with the huge similarity of being jaded to sex---makes for a very intriguing coupling. A pairing such as this could never be smooth, it could never be easily straightened simply by marriage.

    But, ah, this very conflict creates a wonderful read, a complex romance and a lot of emotional turmoil as the lovers make their way through the turbulence to find their peace.

    Can't wait to read White Lace and Promises!

    1. Thank you for stopping by Vastine and for the kind words about Grey's Lady. White Lace and Promises was not always easy to write. It is such a turblent story. But it was the character's truth as they showed it to me.

  2. I've enjoyed all the books and really liked how you wrote this post. :-)


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